LostBiography

You smoke Cigarettes to keep your mind calm You just want to live your  life the right way But it is getting harder every fucking day Unable to follow the way you planned for your life Your are a prisoner of your own thoughts, no strength left to Tear down the walls that torture you for so long Night after night you are looking for someone to help you A special person that can rescue from the darkness that is surrounding You for so long. They are just passing by leaving you all alone again But don't give up your hope. Don't let this world crush you

Nights are meaningless when you are too afraid to sleep And so are the days when you can't open your eyes Never ending thoughts keep you awake. Your mind pictures a world full of threats and risks. The picture is so lightless and grim that you can't see the sun light leading your way out. You are running away from yourself you are running away from the sun With eyes closed looking for a shelter You keep running away from the gun It is so hard for you, to let your dreams go Without a story to tell , too afraid to chase your dreams You remember the better times so many years ago

This town gets smaller and smaller every fucking day In the cigarette smoke you try to find a better place far away from here These small minded people are trying to eat your soul and your passion wanderlust is the only feeling left inside you. you have to get away from this mess and this town Guided by a sun far away from this place Eyes focused on a better life without prison walls This town is a graveyard for dreams and hope and every day there are more and more tombstones on the way It's time for you to go, before its to late Wanderlust is the only way to get closer to your fate

This path leads you to nowhere It's a dead end  but you can't admit it No friends , no love , no goal to pursuit your only companions are cigarettes and liquor. You try to find your way to a better life but with every day that is passing away you get  lost in a daydream You have a picture in your head of what  life should be It's blurry of the thoughts that lead you right to you ruin You follow this path just to realize there is no happy end for you

"It is a cold monday morning when they found you.The wind has taken your soul to a place where you can find peace. You were 11 years and your world was lonely and  full of pain you just wanted to leave this place for a warm and joyful home..." You screamed for help , you screamed for someone to hear.   Your screams faded into the night and no one was near. You asked god why you deserves a life like this but he remained silent. No Mother , No father you could have turned to. Your surrounding  consists of drugs and alcohol and every day you pray that some one gets you out of there. Your prison gets smaller and smaller you just wanted

The music begins to die away With every note that is fading away you lose more and more memories of better days When the days were full of adventures and you just lived for the moment You thought this friendship will never vanish but you were terribly wrong You are lost ever since and you can't think straight Alcohol became your best friend but it couldn't refund what you lost Every Day was a struggle , Every Day was so fucking hard to survive You prayed to a god you don't believe in just to get answers nobody could give you You take one last look on your friend before the pastor speaks his death speech You salute him goodbye "Neve

This is me speaking from the grave. You know who I am , You know who I am. You forsaken us for a life full of sins. On a warm spring day you took the gun from the table from the house where we once lived. You hoped for salvation, but all you got was a place in hell. Since this day you cannot sleep , you cannot  eat. You live from a diet of cigarettes and liquor and you wish you were dead. You want to be with us again but you are too afraid to put the gun to your head. So you just live your life of sins with no hope for a fucking cure.